From "Messages from the Goddess"

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You are my daughter and that means that you have a goddess within you. You may try to hide her. You may try to push her away because you’re afraid of her power. Or you worry that it is too arrogant for you to say that you are a goddess. Who can say that without looking away or expecting mockery? You can. You are mine and you are divine. You will live forever because no matter when death takes you, you will leave behind your record of who you were. You will leave behind people who will speak your name with love and who will carry your memory forward. Death may take your body, but it will never take your essence. You are meant to be a light, shining in the darkness. You cannot be hidden. You are my child and I will never let your forget that.

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